I am moving to Richmond, VA in August.

Crossing off one of the items from my "things to do before I die" list.

:-)

gone baby gone but don't worry I blog at tumblr now

depending on my mood.

or find me on twitter, I update daily.

bye bbs.

I haaaaaate waiting for the phone to ring, refreshing my inbox every 5 mins and checking my phone every so often.

I HATE!

I hate that it's -15 degrees out today, Fahrenheit okay, that would mean -26 Celsius.

HATING HATING HATING.

Okay, I have two options, beg my dad for $2000 for plane ticket home to Malaysia or use that money to move elsewhere. Where? Chicago? back to Minneapolis? West or East? I definitely do not want to deal with harsh winters anymore so I shouldn't consider the Midwest at all.

It makes more sense to move since the reason I'm all depressed and shit is because I'm stuck in Madison.

I don't know what to do. I really don't.

Oh hello 2009.

2008 has been very lame.

Highlights...

1. Got an awesome gig in Minneapolis. Moved there. Failed miserably. Made a lot of good friends though.
2. Didn't get a job offer.
3. House got broken into.
4. Saw someone drown in Lake Calhoun and he died a few days after.
5. Moved back to Madison.
6. Unemployed.
7. Lost my sanity somewhere in between.
8. Started freelancing.
9. Had a self-inflicted spiritual/near death experience. What a trip.
10. Second raya abroad. Lonely as fuck.
11. Worked at lame ass XB (again.) They failed to pay me money so I quit.
12. Voted for Obama. He won. This should be on everyone's 2008 highlight.
13. Unemployed again.

Concerts (This year's list is terrible...)

1. Jens Lekman.
2. Dale Watson.
3. Frank Black / Stone Temple Pilots.
4. The Roots.
5. Missy Higgins.
6. Gin Blossoms.
7. Gavin Rossdale.
8. Ray LaMontagne (The best from this list okthnx)
9. Rachael Yamagata / Thao / Meiko / Hotel Cafe Tour.
10. Eagles of Death Metal.

Like I always say every new years, I do not believe in resolutions because if you wanna make a change, it doesn't matter what time of the year it is. It's all in the head, however in my case it's been an ongoing mission to find a full-time job since like August and it's been tremendously hard. I don't want to blame myself and it's totally because of the economy and also the fact that I'm in Madison. There's no ad scene in Madison, I'm in the wrong side of the country.

I am seriously contemplating of my next big move. I feel like I don't have the passion to be all wanderlust-y and shit anymore, I might just give up soon enough.

We'll see.

Uggs are really ugly, but they are very comfortable and warm.

I have a fake Ugg that I bought for $19.99, and they're just as comfy and nice.

I'm a cheapskate but not ashamed of it.

Martha Stewart is so uptight.

Rachael Ray is annoying.

Bonnie Hunt is the shit.

Ellen is funny but getting a little too overrated. Don't get me wrong, I love my dykes.

I'm gonna make myself a steak now, bye.

My new favorite T-Shirt:

I think love should be exclusive. Or selfish. Same thing.

I hate that Sean has kids (or ex-family, extra baggage whatever) and that that's always a part of him. I'm not sure if I'm up for it in the long run. I want someone to love me exclusively. It's getting sad because there's this song called "True Love Will Find You in the End" by Daniel Johnston that keeps ringing in my head whenever Sean treats me like shit. It's fucking masochistic I tell ya.

My lower left abdomen feels kinda weird, in an uncomfortable kind of way. I googled it and it seems like it's Diverticulitis or whatever you may call it. But I don't think so though. It could also be because I'm stressed out/getting old/not exercising/bad lifestyle.

I know!!! I'm stressing out. Times are hard and the economy's been the worst since the Great Depression and I am jobless and I want to stay but I can't and I am sad because everyone that I care about has been hit hard during this economic downturn. Even my American friends are going through a rough patch, imagine me, a weirdo in a foreign land trying to make a living.

Ugh. I know.

True love will find me in the end.

I HOPE :-(

I am temporarily suspending my twitter auto-feed because I think it's kinda sad too see my life in bullet points.

So here's some updates. Don't ask me why, and I am bummed that this happened but I didn't go see Bon Iver last Friday. UGH. I live with no regrets so I don't wanna overthink it. There's always next time. But fuck! UGH. A sold out show and I didn't even sell the tickets to anyone. UGH okay forget it.

I am also fucking hating because I thought I had a good chance of getting a kick-ass copywriter job in Denver. I had 3 phone interviews with them, it went well despite the fact that I hate talking on the phone because I have an accent and shit like that. But my book is good, so that's all that matters. BUTTTTTTTTTT I've been waiting for three weeks and I haven't heard from them, and I know that it's the holidays and shit but I need a fucking answer. Yes or No. That is all. But yeah, I think Denver is done. I need to think of my next move.

I am so close to giving up right now. I feel like I should come home and I know for a fact that I can get a job easily in Malaysia but the thoughts of having my parents breathing down my neck all the time is really turning me off.

Before (if) I leave I wanna enjoy America to the fullest so I am planning a trip to LA in January. I am soooo excited! Sean is buying me the ticket as a birthday/christmas present. YAAAAAAAY!